what if

What if you were told that you had a debilitating disease and the doctors said that you only had a year to live. What would you change, what would you do, where would you go?

These are the thoughts I’m traveling through as I find myself without the huge weight I’ve carried for over a month now. I only hope, and really truly try, to make sure that I wouldn’t have to change much; inevitably we all would. Mostly though, I try to make sure that each day, as it comes to a close, I don’t find myself wishing I’d said something that I didn’t. It’s a curious life we lead, full of interruptions and complications.

One of the great emails I look forward to, here, so far from home:

ONE MORE. So i went to gator shitty friday. excellent time…kladis was pissy then drunk but happy and amanda cried on ride home. but i digress. while there kladis introduced me to someone. she was like this is eric he was like oh your rach’s friend…due to the fact i was not clouded by alcohol i immediately pounced on fact and answered. i am brittany’s best friend. flash forward 20 minutes of chatting later (again, i hate that place and being sober makes me yearn for conversation) and i go to leave and he was like wait your coming back right? i’ll be here waiting. a look of horror crossed my face with the though of hi you schemed on my bf, she turned you down i am not up for leftovers…she cast you away for a reason. i spent the rest of the night avoiding that corner.

The charming Gainesville, awaiting my return.

8 days remaining. I gag a little everytime I hear true passion, true desire for a McCain presidency. These gift exchanges on that certain book of online networking makes me lose hope about the generation of which I am a part.

Sad to be missing out on the day after 50% off chocolate sales in the stores on November 1st. I ache for dark chocolate with every bit of my self.

I just made a stunning realization about my sex life from this year. Que TRISTE.

NICARAGUA IN 3 DAYS! I realized today, I will be there for Dia de los muertes. Yippee!